imaginary friend,

i saw your face in the wind

telling tails of tomorrow like its already there.

filling the pages of my mind with 

red

yellow

blue

splatters of ink.

i can make it out that i wont make it out.

but i'm fine with that 

cause i don't want to know.

its more honest like that anyway, lets be real.

we're just streams of blood pumping

to feed the muscle on our minds.

i wont give up 

i'll give up

i want to give up

its to easy

but its so fucking easy

so ill close my eyes and keep on running, maybe slow it down to a walk when i get comfortable

-Candy Hearts

jump, flinch

unmerciful-honest

cut from the razor

a wild free fall

glowing with glee - landing 

burns from the embers before they fade

a heart pumps to move blood

catch phrase compressed colored sugar- professing its love to paste on smiles.

just another day.

walls won't grow on their own,

hills only fade when they're out of sight.

anxious young couples retreating to back-seats, basements, and bedrooms

together, blissfully oblivious in search of a

sensation they believe will last.

radiant glowing youth

end up fused to the couch on the same day in February- 40  years passed 

authentic bullshit being ordered through tele-charge to change your life.

lovely is this hole;

But to plummet to the bottom before at least dancing around the edge is a waste of time. 

-thinking at work

some days on the way to school id rather just keep driving and see where i end up...get off at random exits, make crazy turns, and just see where i bring myself...i almost can't justify not doing so (besides the money college costs). What would happen if i did that...I'd be wherever i ended up, alive, and all id be doing is experiencing a new place. i feel like the parents and teachers and and most people make kids or young adults feel as if taking that time to themselves will ruin them and lead them a life of finical instability and set them back making it tough for them to get their life going...college is always going to be around, and granted, no matter what, to become self sufficient you'll need a job and going to school will help you out a lot. but then where do you ever truly have time for yourself... being only 20 i want to see so much more than there is around me, and hopefully I'll take myself places some how, and have the opportunity to experience a lot more. i just think its fucked up that we get scared into school because the world revolves around money and all that most kids focus on their starting pay rather than their life that they have the chance to mold into whatever it is they want.